well a few things to share.
You know what your life looks like to a total stranger? Well maybe that is what your life is.
Any strangers in the house?
today had a little shopping orgy at holyoke mall. I had to return a shirt at macy's, so i then looked at shoes - huge sale on boots. I got a 110$ pair of boots for 27 dolla. black, cute, metropolitan, sober, functional.
Then - h + m had some cool stuff. I felt the need to get some summer staples in my wardrobe. Cute adorable cute flats w/ that ankle strap thing. Then, an adorable white knit dress 10$.
the need to shop never really hits me until i bring myself to the store. Ya know? like the mall is otherwise so depressing.
Currently really exasperated at styling my hair. I now have bangs, and I don't know how to get them straight. Preferably without investing in a straightening iron? Any ideas, come on ladies? I tried the round brush idea but it gives me 90's bangs. WTF?
Ok, on to more real things..
Yesterday I drove with remy to Hampshire college - remember the first time I visited with jess in like 2000? And I had a super experience. There was a beautiful visitor spot open for me. It didn't have the hard core parking nazi vibe like umass. At the library I saw someone with the same name as Neil young. I remember him from several years ago when i first moved here. Anyway I got my DVD (entre les murs) thanks to remy, and had an awesome class today showing it to my HSers.
We stopped at Atkins for lunch - I got a TUNA MELT with PROVOLONE FROMAGE. so good!!!
Overall I am asking myself WTF I am gonna do next year for a job. While I am surviving teaching
I am not so much loving it. regardless of the remy situation, I am feeling like a good move for me may be to a city. But how, when, what remains to be seen. I have my fingers crossed for M****** this summer. I guess I on one hand have the baby fever (really hard seeing my friend experience the miracle of birth herself) and wanting to get knocked up, and on the other hand I want to do more things to make my future kid proud of me. Besides assigning homework to asshole students. I want a "real job" where I feel comfortable, preferably in a creative environment with other young people. And I want to just experience city living for real this time. Like, moving to the valley was not a mistake. But I will admit that I did it mainly out of EASE. Like, I really was so fed up with NYC. So much competition for everything. For jobs, for apartments, and for MATES you've got to acknowledge that. I was so not into that scene. the valley is cool but it's also where people go to have babies and give birth with a midwife and enroll the kids in chinese immersion school. I would like to one day maybe be a valley mom. But I should devote the next few years to enjoying my life just for me.
Ironically I applied for an MM... Mostly because I would like insurance, dental too. Yeah, fluting again? Dunno about that.
i just invited Felix to see a concert tonight. It means I have to pay for him cuz I owe him money. UGGGHHHHH FML. Well it should be a good show, but aren't there like welfare class tickets? FIFTEEN DOLLA.
what about you? x x x
