me again.

in an amazing city tonight but not quite feeling amazing. I think that must be hard about city living -- every night, every single fucking night, beautiful people are out socializing being beautiful and enjoying life. So you must keep some time to your self-care.

anyway back to me.... to paint a pic for you I am drinking a cheap canadian beer and hoping that any one will come on chat to spend time with.... Well marion said that she may be there... my favorite french dyke..

Today as expected rem was all "i miss you" and I know that he spent time crying after yelling at me, he really hated himself. But truly, the way he was acting was speaking a truth about him. He said "je suis tout caca sans toi" which is actually problematic. Because I want a partner who is great with or without me. you know? He is going to my parents' tomorrow, then to france for 2 weeks, and bless his heart, but I think that he shouldn't exactly come back. but that is a hard thing to say. I feel that he may burden me, and without a job he will feel all kinds of shitty, thus making a depressed and anxious remy.

I love love... partnership is truly a beautiful thing. I will now lie in my bed and think about life in the abstract. And have a strategy to not bleed all over Lo's sheets tonight.